Not a lot of people know who I am, and ya know, I don't want you to. I created this blog to be as open as I want and no one can hold me back!
I'm the girl that most of the time, pretends to be so happy and nothing is wrong when everything is falling apart. I'm the girl that you never notice. I am so invisible. Now don't get the wrong impression about me. I don't cut, or consider suicide. That's not me, I know that if I killed myself some people will miss me, plus I don't want to go to hell.
So anyway, I will admit I do have a pretty good life and all but its like an emotional rollercoaster. One day can be amazing and the next day I'm in a ditch. Like today, my parents got into it over nothing. My dad always starts the fights. You can't even ask him a question without him blowing up. And then he wonder why no one wants to talk to him. And my mom asks him to do something so simple and he doesn't do it. I swear me and mom are the ones doing all the shit around the house and he gets mad when we ask him to do something. All he wants to do is watch TV all day everyday. And he says he wants to spend time with me and mom, but its a group effort. All he does is go to work, come home & sleep, then watch politics, then go back to bed. It's like he puts on this little act for everyone but as soon as we get home his nice personality disappears.
Then he says to my mom "If I knew you were gonna be a working women I wouldn't have married you."
Ok can you guess how he makes me feel? I feel unwanted around him, then he says to me "You know I love you right?" how I wish I would say no, but for some strange reason I say yes. It hurts.
I don't care if you enjoy this blog or not. I just need my feelings out because I cant talk to anyone I know.
This has been 'Everything Falls'
~H
